My new life
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
I swear, after Empower U is over, I'm going to change. I've been mean in the past. I've been selfish and scornful. I've not been living up to my promises, and I've been a jerk who doesn't know how to appreciate my friends. So, I'm so sorry my dear friends.
But don't worry. I'm not going to become an Emo again.
I'm going to try something different. Everyday, when I come to school, I'm going to help my enemies. I'm not going to criticize anyone anymore. I know how painful it is to be hurt, so I'm not going to hurt anyone else by teasing or joking.
Neitther am I going to be an arrogant ass who tries to show off.
Oh, and If I meet people like that, I'm still going to treat them the same way. No Anger, No bitterness. Just love.
Because someone once told me, Love is the most powerful emotion. More powerful than hate, bitterness or anger. True, those are pretty strong emotions, but nothing beats love.
I shall never forget you guys,
My old Friends.
WeekEnd at EmpowerU
Monday, July 30, 2007
I know, I know. My Prelims are coming, and u might be wondering, Why am I wasting my weekend here. So I brought a couple of books along to study (Which I evantually didn't) and I have to admit. I was pretty unproductive this weekend.
When my spirit starts falling, the BoardBreak just brings it up again. It wasn't as crazy as last time, but it did bring my spirit up a little. I was given crowd control position. And that, was so cool. I'm pretty lucky to be controling the side where the participants are relly hyped up and enthusiastic.
And I'm like Jumping like crazy, trying to get the crowd to do the same, and also prevent them from coming too far forward.
After the BoardBreak, We did a bit of visualization before ending. Then the assist got together after EmpowerU and talked one by one about their experience.
Sunday, for me, was an all time low. I know, I know. The lack of sleep combined with my unfinished homework and catching a cold created a recipe for disaster. I skipped Church, and that still haunts my conciounse. I didn't put God first.
I am so sorry.
So yeah, thats the hands on. After that, Lethargy and Sickness claimed me. I took a couple of R & R so as not to disturbed the group with my lethargic feelings. I felt like Starwars. You know, be mindful of your thoughts.
Anyway, Mindchamps ended, We watch John Senior do a solo performance, before sharing our experience again. This time, I didn't feel like having supper. Nor did I feel like going bowling. SO I turned down Brent's offer to join him in bowling.
Darn this cold. I shouldn't have rejected the offer.
Anyway, Sherlynn offered a ride, and she dropped me off at Ang Mo Kio Interchange, Thanks girl. Saved me a long walk back to Toa PoaYoh, and I wasn't exactly having a great day.
But, Negative things aside. I learned a couple of lessons. During the EmpowerU assist, I admit. I was a little stuck up and arrogant. I kind of put down some suggestions by the assist, and tried to be someone who I was not. I wasn't totally honest, and I started the day on the wrong foot.
So, I'm gonna change. So, I'm gonna write all those lessons I learned and post them here. Feel free to read and use them. This are tried and tested methods that I have experienced and learned.
My Lessons List- Live my Life to the fullest. Cause someday, I'm gonna look at my life, and I'm not going to regret what I have done.
- Just Do it. If you Feel it needs to be down, Just do it.
- Do not rush. Greet every situation with a calm mind. DO not Panic, and DO NOT Rush. The important thing is to keep your focus.
- Be Optimistic. Whatever I do, Be optimistic. If something bad happens, look at the bright side of it.
- Whatever I do, give thanks to God. Whatever problems I encounter, Change my prospective of them, and view them as challenges set by God to help me grow. With God, everything is possible.
- Be Honest. People Like you when you are honest and open.
- Do not criticize people. You might feel good criticising or teasing, but the other party doesn't.
- Be Hardcore Helpful. Cause this is how You can become popular. Even if someone offends you, be kind to him. Its hard to hate a kind person.
- To be successful, I'm gonna need state plus strategy
- Thoughts will always be thoughts unless you put them into action.
- People are selfish. Lets be different and be selfless.
- think of others before thinking of yourself.
Sherlynn and I chilling out.
Remember the Beach Ball?
Sonya and Sherlynn! My Assists Friends!
Sherlynn offered a ride home on Sunday in her dad's car.
Empower U - Again and Again!
Friday, July 27, 2007
One week after EmpowerU, and two days after I've recovered from Fever, I'm back again. Boys and Girls, I'm back, at Empower U! This time, as an Assist Team!
The Day before, I had a Barbeque with the whole Empower U Assist Team, minus a couple of people like Benedict, Jieji and DingXiang. So Basically, I'm the only one in my core programme that went. We BBQ to 10 plus, before Sherlynn, Derrick, Sum (I might have spelled her name wrongly) and me squeezed into a cab home.
I reached home, sped through a couple of my homework, and hit the sack at 2.30 in the morning.
School was boring. Hell, all school day is boring. But Empower was AWESOME. Here are the rules I have to follow.
RULESI have to Wear a red Polo Shirt and black long pants.
I have to come early and be prepared to stay back late to clean up.
I have to help control the crowd
I need to boost the energy level in the programme.
Help out when Neccessary.
I'm proud to finally help out in the Assist Team. First, everyone look up to me with respect, which is really cool. Also, I would have like this, "Can go nearly anywhere" Pass, which is a priveledge =) Also, I get to do something different from normal routine, which I find it pretty cool!
The cool thing is, I"M THE ONLY ONE FROM MY CORE PROGRAMME! No one else came. Yeshhhh! I can go crazy again!
There was one activity, where you're given a slip of paper with nubers of questions on it. And the person with the answer will have to sign it. I got people coming up to me and asking, "Dude, Are you turning 18?" I'm like, NOOOOOOOOOO! I"M ONLY 15! don't judge me by my Height! Then, they start to ask a different question.
"DO You have a Driving License?"
wth!After EmpowerU, A couple of Assist and I chowed down at Macdonalds. Bowen was so funny with her handphone. Oh, And theres another person called John in the Assist Team. John chew.So when somebody calls, "John."
We both respond. We kinda hit along nicely. yeah!
My worse day
Monday, July 23, 2007
Life is filled with ups and downs. I was happy yesterday. Today, I fell sick. Well, actually, I had a mild fever and vomited twice in school. My whole body ached, and I didn't know what to tell my mum. My mum, Naturally, was against me going to EmpowerU. Now that I'm sick, I feel so embarrassed.
Because the Fault was mine.
Anyway, I was ill the whole day, which means that I was suffering for seven hours in school. Damm. but anyway, I did something awesome today.
Remeber Brent said, The mind is a powerful thing. Its all in your mind. So the moment, I hit home, I bathed, and collapsed in my bed. But, I limited my thoughts solely on recovering. I imagined myself jumping around and hopping out of bed, active.
And Guess what? It worked! I woke up, all sweaty, But hey. The Fever was gone.
This is merely an example of how powerful the mind is.
Believe You can, and You'll be suprised by the results.
EmpowerU revisit
Sunday, July 22, 2007
My new name....
This Is my first Post, And I was looking for a brilliant way to kickstart this blog. I just had the EmpowerU revisit, again. Compared to last time, This EmpowerU was way better. There are a several factors, that i'm gonna go a little bit into. First, I had the experience. I knew what to expect, and although that means that I won't get the "Kick" anymore, It was a totally different feeling. I didn't mind sitting through the programme again. I didn't mind listening to what Brent and Tarquee(I hoped I spelled it right) said. In fact, I kinda enjoyed it.
Anyway, theres Brent and Tarquee, our two trainers. Dale couldn't make it coz he's wife is pregnant.
There's Tarquee, the new trainer. He's just as awesome as dale.
Oh, and there's the grouping too. Okay, there's Jieji, Benedict, Dingxiang and me doing the revisit. We all wanted to be on the same team. We met Justin, coz he didn't attend the last empowerU due to some camp. But anyway, one thing was decided. Same group together.
Heres where I screw up. We all ended on different teams. But we swapped around, Till Benedict, Jieji, Justin and DingXiang ended up in group 8. The Cats- again.
Me? I swapped from Team 1, Dogs, to Team 10. The Geese. Why? NO Reason. Its either by some lucky mistake, or I just felt like it. And I never regretted my decision. Lemme show you two of my team members. Chester Is the Team Lader, and he's pretty cute. He's the guy on the left. The guy with the cheesy smile in the center is me. And the really sweet girl on my right, is Sherlynn!
These are the Three Shining Stars in this team. Well, it beats my previous team, mocking birds. Particularly because I'm the only lone star =P IN this Team, I've got these two amazing people, and we instantly click! Now, lemme tell ya a secret. You're looking at the winning Team. The Geese!
So, During Break, My Aristotle Friends teased me and wacked me a little. Well, you know. Wrong Team, Oops. cats was never my thing anyway. I do Birds. From Mocking Bird, to the Geese.
Anyway, these new friends of mine really clicked. Chester shared the same love for music and has the same outgoing nature as me (we both strip body naked during the board break) And Sherlynn and I had the same favourite colour, lameness, jokes and enthusiasm. Here's what true friends are. Its when You look at the other person, and Just laugh for no reason. Thats' what's going on between Sherlynn and Me. God I love this team.
Me And JieJi were Goofing Around. Justin is on the left, eyeing us suspiciously.
Anyway, To illustrate the Geese's unity, Chester and I were screaming like crazy on saturday. When we did the beach ball activity, Chester and I got everyone in a circle, and we both had the honour of carrying the ball to everyone. One thing I gotta say. Chester, is a born leader.
When it came to the dance, Chester stripped. He took off his clothes and started dancing. I followed, like 15 mins later. Why? Because I'm moving up one stage, from crazy to insane. I'm way lucky none of the girls from Aristotle were there. Or not, it would be embarrassing. You want to see a photo?
Dream On!
Anyway, Sherlynn was our assist team leader. And she is one awesome girl. We spent sasturday, at the back making jokes and engageing in lame talk. When it came to the hugs. We clock the tightest and longest hug i ever had. Chester coming in second. Man, I love my team.
That's sherlynn doing a bad girl stance. Man' that was funny.
Sherlynn is also a revisit, just like me. So it's alot of common traits. Cool huh? Never expected to meet her instead of my aristotle friends. Anyway, on Sunday, Chester, Sherlynn and I joked about crying during the reflection time.
In the end, we all broke down and cried. Literally. Lucky I had tissues. Again. It was the man in the cloak story, and the photo album about my life. I tried not to cry at first. really, I did.
But half a minute later, I just cried. Again. Dang!
So here I was, emotionally distressed and distraght. Coz I saw Micheal. For some of you who don't know, please don't ask. But Being like an idiot, when the trainer asked for volunteers to share their story. I raised my hands.
And Got so emotionally downcast when I got the Mike. There's this girl in Aristotle, called Hazel. Last day, she cried. I felt the same thing. The words got stuck in my throat. But Chester, who was sitting on my right, patted me on the back, and Sherlynn, who was on my left, reach down slowly, and Squeezed my hands gently. She held it until I finished talking. Wow.
That's what friends are for.
Anyway, Ben called me a flirt. Dingxiang joined in. And I'm like, "Hello?" DIngxiang confronted me with this issue in front of Sherlynn! can u imagine that?
Oh, And I got a new name. For those Empower U Guys. See this!
When it came to performance time, Chester and Sherlynn split the team into two, and fought over me. But we scrpped the idea, and decided on a new cheer. We didn;t bring any props, or make up. Just us.
And with amazement, that performance brought the Geese to victory. How cool was that?
Anyway, I'm invited back to Empower U Next week. As a Assist Team Member this time. Yay! I'll be meeting Jie Ji and oh, Sherlynn again.
Anyway, I gave Sherlynn a bear key chain and told her to return it next week. She said okay, but I don't think she might remember... my bear...
My Team!
Sherlynn Dancing!
Until Next week!
My new name....
